Never said I could add!

So --- I never professed to be a wiz at math.  And all of my friends are way too polite to point out my failings in the math area!

As of today it is 13 down 17 to go!  So that would make yesterday 12 - 18!  See told you I have math issues.

Still a crazy game!  But at least I only have 17 more treatments to go!  That sounds way better than the stats of yesterday.

Thank you for being so kind and not pointing out my horrid math skills.  I could blame it all on left over chemo brain, but honestly, I am just that bad at adding.

12 DOWN - 28 TO GO

Sounds a bit like a score in game.  I guess in some ways it is.  My game of "radiation race".  I wonder if we could market it?  Doubt it - no one really wants to play, trust me!

Today I am finding the race to be tedious.  I know I shouldn't complain, but the "getting up in the morning, shower, get dressed, drive to cancer clinic, undress, get zapped, apply protective lotion, get dressed, drive to work, repeat 30 times" has gotten old already.  And I am at 12-28.   Yikes!! 

Time for an attitude adjustment I guess.  I am thankful that this treatment is available to me and so close to home.  I drive past the cancer clinic on my way to work on a regular day as it is.  I am also thankful that the side effects have been minor so far, just a little pink skin, feels like a mild sunburn and mild fatigue.  Today has been the worst fatigue day.  I would love to just curl up on the couch in our reception area and have a nap.  Unfortunately the unladylike snoring would be a bad first impression for our clients!!!  LOL.  So I will have another cup of coffee, to get a caffeine boost and carry on!

And that dear friends is my update!  12-28 and hanging in!  Thanks for all your prayers and support!!!!

I "Heart" Phil!

I don't think it comes as a surprise to anyone who knows me.  But sometimes it is a good idea to publicly declare it.  I LOVE PHIL!  The kind of love that causes you to carve your initials in a tree trunk, even when you know deep down inside it is not in the best interests of the tree.  The kind of love that causes you to say YES and walk down the aisle all dressed in white lace.  The kind of love that causes you to think that a houseful of kids is a good idea.

I have never doubted that he loves me. 

The past six months have revealed another level of love.  His love for me.  I know that he loves me, have never doubted that in the 38 years that we have been together.  But in the last six months he has demonstrated a love for me that brings tears to my eyes. 

He loves me enough to:

make all my meals
drive to the store at the craziest hours to get me the latest craving
wash my clothes, dry, fold and put away
make all my meals
drive me to work in the morning
drive all the way back to my office to pick me up after work ( even on the really short days)
do ALL the grocery shopping
make all my meals
bring me drinks
go out at all hours in search of the perfect smoothie
bring me pillows
cover me with a blanket
did I mention - make all my meals?
comfort me when chemo made me sick
listen to all my fears
let me cry
pray for me
go to all my medical appointments
sit with me while I had Chemo
regardless of his own fears, hold my hand and tell me it will be alright
and so on and so on.

The list could go on for many many pages.

I am so blessed to have Phil as my life partner!  I thank God daily for him.  So on this Valentine' Day I am taking a moment to say "Phil, Will you be my Valentine?  I love you?"

And Radiation Begins!

Yesterday was day one of radiation treatment.  I will be having 25 treatments plus 5 boosts.  30 trips to the radiation therapy department in all!  Everyday, Monday to Friday, for 6 weeks. 

So I am 2 down, 28 to go.  This week all my treatments are early enough in the day that I can make it to work on time and the Cancer Centre is going to do their best to keep all my appointments early. 

I am hoping that I can get through this treatment with minimal side effects. 

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.